Nope. I don't have anything to mention except that there are so many incomplete sentences in my head trying to figure out what they're suppose to be. Sometimes too creative can really drained your brain.

Do you know that feeling when you actually can forecast or see what is happening, but you still won't accept it? Just circle around with your emotions and be in-denial all you want. When the truth is, it's all shattered and no glue in this world can put them back together other than your very own 'pretending-it's-okay' tape. 

Yeah, everything is allright.

I became somebody through loving you. But when you become someone that's breaking me, all that this world can see is, nothing. Nothing? It doesn't exist? What the sweet drug are you talking about? I don't know anything.

All the good names (that you commonly use to call someone you love) had lost their meanings in my dictionary.

All thanks to those who's responsible for it. I hate you. 

I shouldn't allow this to happen to me. But it did, and beyond my control and awareness. Stupid. How could I be so darn stupid. And blinded!

From time to time, I'm just going to be mad, angry, sad, frustrated, broken, crushed, and back to mad, angry, sad, frustrated, broken and crushed again.

And from time to time, I will build up my courage to just move on and forget about it. But the wound is still bleeding. It is pathetic - that I don't need to be reminded of. When will this finally be over? When will this actually be water under the so called darn bridge?

I won't be apologising for the angry statement. And I honestly don't care if you think it's impolite or rude for me to be acting this way.

For all that I know, you ruined me, you broke me, you damaged me. And I really hate you for that. But I loved you. And this is really hurting me. Especially the part where you just sit there and said nothing apart from you know how it darn bloody feels like. No you don't! Not even close.

I want to swear and I want to break things. I want to scream and bleed it out.

FIX ME!! FIX ME!! FIX ME!! FIX ME!! FIX ME!! FIX ME!! FIX ME!!!

** Can't believe it took me this long to let this out of my chest. I am so ruined. Thanks.

Someone told me not to read too much into something. 'Cause I might get

hurt. And it might be something not relevant to me, it could be something

that is totally.... something that I shouldn't be reading.

But all the pieces seem to relate to one another. What am I suppose to do? Leave it? I couldn't. 'Cause I'm curious. Not to forget that I'm addicted to it.

Somebody could be anybody. But nobody could be that someone.

Things that we don't say...

They're just building up inside you 'til you can't content them anymore. And when you decided to move on and forget about it, they will always follow your steps like a shadow in the dark. 

I want to be angry so bad. But I don't have enough reason to.

Funny how love bring you down to you knees... Has it ever occur to you that you need a pair of strong wills to keep you standing side by side with the person you claimed you love. Or loved.

I made that up. But it's true if you believe in it.

You asked God if this is fair? You questioned her decision for leaving it hangin'. Look around babe, you weren't being fair to yourself in the first place. Not even to her.

First thing that I thought of when I opened my eyes this morning was, where am I? 

I wish I'm home. But I'm stucked. I have a purpose to complete. And until then, I'm chained to this part of the world - to a life with a dull routine. I'll survive but I'm already transforming to someone else.

I hate writing for the first post on a new blog. Especially introduction part. I'll skip that.