October is really not a lucky month for me. It's only the 9th but I've lost so much already. Where is everybody? Everyone's avoiding me or simply doesn't want to be involve with me.

I am not being dramatic, but I seriously has no one to talk to.
It's been a really depressing week. Someone even claimed that I perhaps has become a monster. What did I do wrong? Why is god punishing me this way? Is He? Or perhaps I am punishing myself? What is wrong with me?