I seriously can't understand how can or why do anyone (other than my family who "had" to) loves me at all?

I don't get it at all. I'm fussy, sensitive, mean, too honest with my words even when sometimes it's hurtful, and I'm very stubborn. So I was told.

I don't feel I deserve the love I'm getting. I don't feel I'm worth it at all. And most importantly, I kept on hurting those around me. It is just not fair. I don't understand at all. It's like the more I hurt them, the more they come back to me.

Why are you doing this??? I don't want to hurt you.